So unsexy

oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
one smal sideways look and I feel so ungood
somewhere along the way
I think I gave you the power to make me feel
the way I thought only my father could

oh these little rejections how they seem to real me
one forgotten birthday and I'm all but cooked
how these little abandonments
seem to sting so easily
i'm 13 again am I 13 for good?

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
so unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
so ignorant for someone of sound mind

oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
one forgotten phone call and I'm deflated
oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me
your hand pulling away and I'm devastated

when will I stop leaving baby?
when will I stop deserting baby?
whwn will I start staying with myself?

oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
the moment I decide not to abandon me